HARD TO SAY

HARD TO SAY

Such a bitter brisk wind blowing through me,

As I walk down these empty rain sodden streets.

My hands trying to keep warm in the pockets of my overcoat,

Yet my mind drifts as if on a runaway boat.

Splashing through puddles with every step I take,

Can’t help to reflect upon my every mistake.

Did I do it all for reasons unknown?

Is that why I’m once again alone?

I murdered what we had outright,

That I’m guilty of this weary winter night.

I took your heart and ripped it from your chest,

Maybe the remorse for that explains my unrest.

It’s hard to say,

That I was wrong in every way.

It’s hard to say that I love you today,

Especially when I’m walking away.

You were one of many regrets,

But the pain, misery and disgust I will soon forget.

My blood stained hands will eventually wash clean,

And in myself a better person will redeem.

You’ll go on through life resenting me,

If only you’d open your naïve eyes you’d see,

That I was always true and never a fake,

Your accusations and allegations I just could not take.

I’ll keep walking until I’m as far from you as I can get,

These empty streets will lead me far from your shit.

The sun will rise over the horizon any moment for me,

And I’ll feel her warmth and from you I’ll be set free.

It’s hard to say,

That I was wrong in every way,

It’s hard to say that I miss you today,

Especially when I’m the one walking away.

It’s hard to say that I ever loved you,

It’s easy to believe after knowing it wasn’t true.

-brad